J-O-Y

Joy. Jesus Others You. Sounds simple right? Well... it should be. But for some reason I get the letters mixed up. I always tend to focus on pleasing others... meeting their needs. When I see someone hurting I begin hurting for them. When I see someone with a problem I want more than anything to fix it for them. Then I begin focusing on myself. I begin thinking of ways to please others so that I look "good." I am a people pleaser. Not that there is anything wrong with being a people pleaser but I have allowed it to consume me. I get so wrapped up in pleasing others that I put Christ on the back burner. Others don't suffer... I do. In the end I am putting myself first. Y-O-J. I am living a backwards life...

How do I change this? Before anything else... I need to put Jesus first. I need to let Him lead the way. Sometimes this can be so hard... but so rewarding.

Busy Busy Busy

Busy. The 4 letter word that not only describes my life but consumes it. Why? Is it because I enjoy being productive? Is it because I enjoy a fast paced life? While I do enjoy being productive I do not enjoy living a fast paced life. I would do anything for a day without lists, work to do, things to accomplish. I would love to have an entire day to rest. Breathe. Enjoy the life around me. Have I tried this? Yes. Numerous times. But it doesn't work. Because as soon as I find a day to rest... I end up doing something productive. I find myself thinking of everything that I need to accomplish. I decided that a whole day might be unrealistic during this time of my life. Instead ofan entire day, I decided that a few minutes each day would be a good start. So the purpose of this blog is to allow myself to take a few minutes now and then to rest. To breathe. To do something I love.... write...